So, if I have allowed you to see this, it’s because you are a friend, and I consider my friends like my family. This means what I write is between you and my screen and nobody else (no prying eyes for exes, you know how it goes).

I’m moving Thursday, and everything is going pretty well for me.

I am dropping one class due to some financial aid woes, but will make up for it at a later date. Obama and McCain are coming to my school Thursday, and I hope the VP shenanigans stays far away from my campus. Somehow when the prez of Iran came, it seemed like it was less annoying (less security and the like). There’s all kinds of rules on what you can and cannot do that day. So I’ll get out of class Thursday morning, come back here, and pack to move.

I met someone amazing. I know you might want to think about passing judgment, but the only thing you should want to think is how lucky I am to find someone so incredibly special and amazing that I have time to look forward to. His name is Fabricio and he makes me feel like a human being in ways that I honestly have never felt. I have felt dead and empty for so long and he was the one who knocked sense into me the other day when I was bitching and complaining and writing nothing but negativity. He illustrates children’s books, paints, and is actually a really sweet man. I’ve learned a lot from him and hope to just keep learning. Though we’ve taken things slowly for obvious reasons, I just want to be around him. And once we are able to do that, I (though assuming nothing), expect we will be able to better each other just by being around each other. Similar philosophies, viewpoints, and relationship needs match us pretty well…and no more nagging or obnoxious neediness to hold me back. I learned a lot from my relationship with E, I really did, but it’s time for me to move on—and yeah, some might argue it was many years ago. And I was in no position to tell someone no nor push them away when I felt it. I have been doing nothing but feeling these days, which if you know me, is actually pretty fucking weird. E knows about him, and knows his name even, but I am in no position to rub him into his face. I don’t like hurting people no matter what…how did he find out about him you might ask? Bad liar I am-omission and all that. I suck at it all. His energy has done nothing but benefit me. I’ll hook up the photos I promised later to some of you…and you’ll see. He’s real…

After so many years of bad luck, I do deserve this…

My headaches aren’t any better today, but I’m trying. And that’s all I can do or say anymore.

Love to all of you, and big Shhhhhh’s too.

xoxoxo