Author deanna

what it’s like right now, discipline is a verb

I have an inordinate amount of time to myself over the past few months, which has led to a lot of time for introspection. The nature of Don’s schedule requires we live in opposite-land– our waking schedules skidding past a… Continue Reading →

speechless and exhausted

Not exactly sleepless, I’ll admit. I was absent yesterday, reeling a bit from a discovery on Friday that a close relative had an aortic dissection and nobody told me–nobody thought to mention, though I guess I am not one to… Continue Reading →

wow, even I can be rendered speechless

This happened today at work–I rambled in, spent too much time in Starfuckers waiting for coffee, had our meeting and signed my offer letter which was more than I thought it would be for, but no, not $20 an hour…. Continue Reading →

New Year Smears

So…got one down yesterday, and though I have a mounting headache up in the noggin, it’s that whole remark the life you might forget that compels me to try this again. So yes, two in a row in the first… Continue Reading →

for 2019…I will try to hate myself a little less

Last year I bought this dream book kinda thing–well it was a planner with goals set up in a short term, long term and semi regular kinda thing, weeks laid out, goals listed and easily checked off quarterly and monthly…. Continue Reading →

the responsibility and role models

I have to say–after having so many years of absolute chaos, and I am talking even of New York in many ways, because though it was certainly fun, it never seemed exactly stable at all. New York was the land… Continue Reading →

Aortic Dissection Awareness Day is Today, Guys

I can tell you all I felt like a bit of anomaly before I came across this group on facebook that has 2400 members. Granted I haven’t run into anyone with the exact same situations, but there are those who… Continue Reading →

the push, an end to oasis

I’ve always thought some of my better works were on the backs of cocktail napkins. When would one be privy to cocktail napkin poems? Clearly either drinking or bartending, and both usually involved the same thing. Tonight, a last hurrah… Continue Reading →

Holy Crap the Threat of Heart Exhaust is Very Real Here

I see that up there and wonder about my tendency to keep things lower case when I used to title the works I would post here–not sure what any of it even means in the grand schemes of things, but… Continue Reading →

Every Once in a While…Thank god, or the Universe for the Surprise

There’s been some monumental shifts lately in the way things are working. It’s like finally something snapped and things are really going to be alright. I would elaborate but still feel the tendency to cloak my good news in generalities… Continue Reading →

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