So tailspin…not really, but busy as hell lately-visitors, last days of work, getting a new job. I have been mildly entertaining, but mostly entertaining myself. Today is supposed to be my last day at the gym, but I have this vague feeling they will call me on Monday to come back. Though this will be on my terms, and notsomuch theirs.

I have been dating again. Or something. I guess considering dating anyhow. Bouncing around, meeting people. Like 2 people I would see again. Two more dates before the weekend. I told one guy the prize for being a contender was that I would hang out with you more than once. Not that I am a bitch, but I really despise wasting time. I haven’t touched anyone since February 16th, and certainly don’t want to just give it up for just anyone. Oh, the ex. I realized something: breaking up with him was the single smartest thing I have done in a while. People always have told me that all men are the same: emotional nimrods not capable of expressing. Men are pigeon-holed as emotionally vacant because most of them are. However, I won’t settle for some carbon copy situation with some guy who can’t muster any bit of honesty, spite when the it hits the fan. I know you guys are out there, and I am not gonna settle for less when I deserve ten million times more.

After I bartended the other night these guys I met and I went to a bar down on A-four of them, one of me. Then I met four other ones. The highlight was this crazy girl punched one of the boys in the head, and walked away. She came back to “talk to me” but I was just like, “listen. you give girls a bad name. do you understand?” He had apologized for bumping into her and then she punched him. I told her “that was so fucking unnecessary, and that’s not how you deal with people, man”. She brushed it off by saying, listen, I’ll buy you and all your boys drinks. There were 8 of them, so I wasn’t gonna do that. However, five minutes later, where was insane girl? Nowhere to be found.

ooooo, ahh ohh. What to do, what to say?