hahaha. The things that could mean are endless.
But it seems to be getting truer by the day, as my days activities become less and less. And certainly nothing seems to happen in my life unless I instigate it. Nobody calls me to come over or go to the park, or whatever any more. I used to be the organizer of everyone, nothing would happen acitivity-wise with my better friends unless I planned for it. I would try everything to get people together, and it seemed to happen, but it didn’t seem to happen unless I thought of it.
I have started realizing that this was becoming less and less true. It isn’t so much that people aren’t doing things unless I organize them, but that people were doing things on their own, and didn’t even think of me at all.
It was kind of a test, the past month and some, to check and see if the glue was made of something aside from my own energy, and it has become fairly clear that it was made of nothing else.
And that actually really sucks.
June 24, 2007 at 4:20 am
Um….. I know you probably don’t wanna hear this, cuz well.. I’m not in NYC.
BUT I DON’T HAVE YOUR DIGITS TO CALL YOU!!!!!!!!!
😛
Yeah… but believe me, do you think a single soul has called me since I left SD? Uh, no. L000000000sers.
Hey… teaser… I might be coming to NYC in Septembre for a conference. *snigger* Let you know how it goes, but I is bugging the boss. Conference is free, so um, yeah. 😛
You know I has a spare ‘oom in Denver, right? 😀
June 24, 2007 at 4:23 pm
go Jho!
Ooohhh. If you come visit, it would be fancy pants to see you.
When I have moved, nobody has called either–it seems to be the trend. But I guess life goes on at the same pace for those people who haven’t left–and things just haven’t changed.
I must email you my digits–I thought we did that switch…and actually I might have them in my phone too. I will have to check that out.
Be good Jho! I hope Colorado is treating you well. I knows youz gots ze room…I will have to visit you once I come to town. My entire secondary family and birth family on my mother’s side lives there too.
🙂
June 24, 2007 at 7:43 pm
Re: go Jho!
*smile* You know I always have an open door for you!
It’s so good to be home, and I’ve had a couple of days off to rest and relax, and then I get two weeks out for training (but I’ll be doing work at night too, but I won’t be IN the office!) late July & early August. 🙂
The shows here are *so* much better, and I am going to get to go see Order of the Phoenix in Imax!!!! 😀 I’m planning on hitting up Marilyn Manson, Godsmack, and The Cure so far this year, and then there’s the races! 😀
I hope you are well, you’re never far from my thoughts.
June 24, 2007 at 7:03 am
i hear ya.. i’ve resorted to an old friend group and am kind of socially starting over. a definite fave in my life.. ugh
we should go out after work one of these days 🙂
June 24, 2007 at 4:32 pm
But of course
I have done this resorting and re-sorting so many times.
I ended up hanging out until 5 in the morning last night with a newer friend–and it was fun.
But I think I am ultimately going to go back to my original thing–doing shit on my own. There were many years when I went out on my own, went to the movies on my own, ate dinner on my own, and never depended on anybody for anything. Hell, I used to plan entire beach days around my own schedule and jaunted out on the LIRR to Long beach by myself. Those were the days I used to get in a bit more trouble, but it was essentially much more peaceful to do things like that.
I am trying to figure out when I flipped the switch and stopped doing that stuff and started inviting other people. I don’t exactly know, but I think everyone around me has been benefitting from my generousity with no appreciation for anything. It’s not surprising when you consider the shallowness of human nature, but it does hurt my feelings.
Bottom line is–this will be better for my bank account.
June 24, 2007 at 5:34 pm
Re: But of course
yeah i’m taking july off from drinking.. re-evaluation month, the 2nd half of this year needs to be better than the 1st.
i used to wander around the city on my days off but i think the fact that i’ve been so broke it became a depressing thing that i saw these stores, i saw restaurants and i couldn’t go inside because i didn’t have any money.
i’m about to sell something valuable to pay down my credit cards, so hopefully finances will ease up enough that alone time becomes an enjoyable past-time again.
i’ve def thought about beaching it on my own though.. my favorite beach to go to is riis.. you can take the far rockaway A to broad channel, switch to the shuttle then take the Q22 from that last stop to riis. takes about an hour and a half to get there. not bad.. and the beach is free 🙂
June 24, 2007 at 6:49 pm
Re: But of course
yay! A new beach! I spent more time getting to Long Beach I think. Does that beach have any boardwalk or beachy place to drink or have shrimps?
I am a big fan of all of that–I got used to window shopping broke. Then I would end up at home reading books as opposed to walking around getting sad. This is why I am a fan of free activities. Superchunk is playing the park today! They are the most fun band live and I haven’t seen them in 6 years so I am heading over.
If you wanna meet up let me know. I am not going until 4:30ish.
June 24, 2007 at 7:15 pm
Re: But of course
riis is a little more old style.. they have a couple of snack shacks with fries, hotdogs, pretzels, chicken strips, etc.. and you can buy beers too. and then the ice cream man parks out there haha..
big old art deco bath house that’s a beautiful addition to it. doesn’t get very crowded so you can always find that perfect spot 🙂
i think i’m stuck at home today.. might be getting a new couch so i gotta be around for delivery.. andmy legs and feet are quite wrecked from all the walking i did last night haha..