I’m kidding of course but I am very much alive. Guess what has happened since then?

You guessed it, another open heart surgery. Actually. I had my stent (TEVAR) re-lined in that time as well. I keep getting to survive these things because I am meticulous in my approach to surviving with a vascular illness in the modern era so I do ALL the things. I mean all the things you understand are required of you when your circumstances change.

I am absolutely taking a dig at you guys who all gave up on COVID, bc it’s actually really the lesson this environment was trying to teach you all with regards for your own continued survival in the modern era. It requires open eyes and an ability to adapt to the challenges, not tantrum out like a crazy person. You ALL know what I am referring to there, that person with that simple word. I’ve become hyper aware of people’s tendency these days to try & water language down to be frilly & acceptable vs describing a type of person we all fucking know is REAL & a fucking asshole. This is why it’s good to have your own blog. People can’t really cancel you on your own website when you employ no ads nor really anything making me any money at all. OBVIOUSLY.

So back the point. WHY DID YOU ALL GIVE UP so fucking fast & easily??? I mean. JESUS CHRIST GUYS. I mean, we have talked in depth about SARS & how fucked those people were when they supposedly recovered. The diabetes, MS, ALS, early onset dementia etc definitely happened with those guys-the heart problems, too. New SARS, AS I PREDICTED, is increasing the incidence of aortic dissection in the population, and that is not fun. Did I make it look fun. Did you all fucking admire me out here with broken pipes trying desperately not to die of it? I guess so. So yeah. I am alive. I will tell you what happened.

I was in ungodly pain last year at the end. Now, I was in the pain for the past few years in my shoulder which seemed to get worse in the Winter. I’d often be outside hunched over in pain & not able to stand up without holding it. It was my left shoulder, already sliced from under my left breast up and around the scapula from previous issues with the thoracic aorta, my belly is sliced from the groin up, in between the two bottom ribs and parallel to the one above it from when the abdominal aorta & renal arteries also went. ANYWAYS, that pain was seriously not working anymore. I had already planned surgery for 1/12/2024 to have the ON-X replaced with human tissue, but I just could not deal with it anymore. I told them years ago it was the same pain I had before the TEVAR fixed it & they really didn’t believe me. I am not kidding. They didn’t believe me, Queen of FUCKING Aortic Dissection about what I was feeling. My husband’s birthday was the 19th of December & I was dead to do anything because that shoulder pain was outrageous. So, I went to the ER holding my Medify with my Aura300M literally the DAY that Biden had the street cut off after a time because he was reading a book in the children’s hospital next door. So we got in like within 45 minutes of them cutting everyone off from driving in easily because of his security so I didn’t have to wait for long because nobody got to compete for services so the ER was barely anyone. Good thing, too. I got admitted. People were coughing their faces off but I also had my googles on, that’s how I’ve had to adapt. That was December 22nd. They came to my room on December 23rd to tell me that, get this, MY TEVAR WAS BUSTED. Yeah. I swear to god that poor guy after he told me.

ME: ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME??! I WENT THROUGH 2 OPEN HEART SURGERIES WITH THE PAIN OF A BROKEN TEVAR. I TOLD THEM!!!

I swear this world right now is so ill-prepared, It’s almost taken itself too seriously now. People won’t listen to the people who tell them what the fuck is wrong because I have no idea. Is it ego? But yeah I got my TEVAR relined a few days later and that surgery is like the joke of all joke surgeries compared to being sliced open. They squirrel it up through your groin. I woke up from that one and I swear I was SO EXCITED because I knew it would work and that I didn’t need to have my chest opened for that one. I stood up within minutes. The nurses attending to me were pretty dumbfounded and said, See, women will save the world.

-my surgery being a few weeks later they did try to schedule one earlier, also on a 3 day which was 1/3-but it ended up getting canceled last minute because get this…someone had an aortic dissection.

Was it related to COVID? No idea. But it happened & kind of ruined me for a minute. But I took the lesson as fate had a better way for me to survive waiting a week. I had the surgery…they ripped out that shitty aortic valve bc my tissue doesn’t adhere well to devices & need true tissue. So I got it replaced with a human donation. Who was this person?

I will never know but so far, so good. I had this in my drafts and I literally have almost 300 so wanted to get this up before I abandon it like so many other things.