I say that often enough. You want things to change, change something about what you are doing. Usually things change with us with the interrupting of another person’s actions into our lives, as a lot of stuff probably up until now appeared like it was just set up to inconvenience when I should realize things have ultimately generally gotten better. Now I can admit I would take almost all responsibility for that aside from Don’s talent—but I made a lot of shit even and equal and readied for him to enjoy the kind of success we might see. I made him do the taxes, get even with the murderer’s debt and just calmed his life down a lot. All I know is nothing would have happened like this had it not been the perfect timing, which it absolutely was.

He is doing a temp assignment out of state that gave him certain authorizations to work anywhere now, and Hawaii is on the list and oh my God, can I really have the life I always dreamed to have, or am I insane? all I know is the rent for a 2 bedroom is the same between Hawaii and Denver, so really it’s now a matter of preference. And I want the beach. Or Europe, or some place excellent.

Our insurance got better at work somehow so I did not owe a thing for the days in the cardiac ICU recently. He now has his own, I have my own and my total bills are no longer outrageous but something management under $5000.

He is now leaving within days of my birthday for a temporary assignment, less than a year. And oh.my.god I will be alone which is sad but ultimately I might end up running to him anyways. I am malleable and unafraid to live anywhere. I see less people than I should for someone well-adjusted to their environment. And moving to be near him might be a better alternative than being so far for as long as it will be. Or maybe holding up a place that’s in Denver but less than $1400 for a 2 bedroom that’s a 1,000 sq feet is what I should do. Either way, it hurt when he worked all night over the past year so all of this will be a gift, I’ll see. Come Spring, as I always intended, he will be around. I assumed he’d take a different job by then, and once again he is being recruited by a lot of people. From a FB ad, remember, that resume service? Yup. that was me that found that for him that changed everything, honestly.

So now that he will be gone I have to find a few things or classes for just me to do. Voice over might be easier now and some other things. Writing, production for 2020’s markets which I plan to host. Maybe all of the above and then some. I made moves for him, now some for me so we can flee gracefully. Amsterdam might be a possibility, for once. Absolutely possible.