I am not a great person when it comes to discipline, surprise surprise! I suck at it largely and it’s going to be a challenge to get out of this hole I sit in kind of, lazily and sloppily letting life pass me by.

Today is Day 1 of the 6 month challenge.

To reiterate, that is a complete revamp of my life to get to a place which I want to be in–goals include but are not limited to–


  1. Exercise daily.
  2. Eating a balanced diet incorporating many diets, some trends.
  3. Documenting it on instagram AND here for more text. Recipes, what I eat, etc. What I think on different diets and trends and why.
  4. Turning the website into a more informative, therapeutic end for people still struggling with the effects of aortic dissection, heart disease or really any disease. Life is a hard thing and I have learned a lot about how tedious and painful suffering through the loss of the life you thought you might have–and how to keep things interesting. I have been motivated by different things, but I always keep what I can control changing.
  5. Exercise everyday. Every day I am going to change up some routines and things to try and work out what is a pretty okay start in terms of fat, but I have no muscle tone or flexibility left right now. I have at points gone through my own trends, but this one I think is a task worth repeating. I will be scouring the internet and probably combing a few pieces of each routine, just like I do with my recipes, always the best parts from a few.
  6. Rejuvenation of skin/face. One thing I have always had a good understanding of is skincare as an adult. As a kid I did some stupid shit and had really quite terrible skin. Nothing was redeeming about it except that it ended up being pretty oily until I moved out West to Colorado. Now I have to load up products and get treatments pretty often to avoid the standard things people endure. But I have never had anything injected into me, and am really against botox for myself. Keep in mind I’ve been loaded up on more anesthesia than your average person 7, 8 times done since you can count the vocal repair. I do not want to inject anything into my body that is something like that. I would, however, be open to using stem cell serums, surface treatments and yes, microneedling, which I have done once so far. The next evolution is–in 3 weeks. Then a month after that and a month after that infinity to cap off my fun in October, which is one of my favorite months of the year, clearly, since I was born then. But the routine of that is something that will be good to actually see a full set of 6 from, since that is clearly lacking from the internet research I have done. I expect lines on my forehead will be inspired to reheal themselves, anything around my jawline should tighten up and any sag again, self-healed. I have done a bunch of different treatments for my face, because again, my body is kind of on its own road and disease. I try to guide it back on the path, but the inside I have less control over, so why not be pretty going down?
  7. omg instagram every day which is a lot more terrifying than it sounds for me compared to a lot of people. I used to take photos like crazy, and it’s been years. I don’t do a lot of selfies as it gets to feel kind of vain and wasteful and I lost that 917 number years ago and loads of files. But I sometimes have gone through 2 choices and been like, good I feel too vain running through them all anyways. And then sometimes I take 15 and think, nope. You are ugly. Granted I have no idea WTF apps people even use anymore. I had to learn photoshop and self edit back in the day, but I know there are some good ones I am not knowing I need to relearn. Come along for the ride here guys, if nothing else watch someone learn how to get it all done.
  8. twitter but I am a bit of a smartass with a lot and feel my mouth might sometimes wants to say a lot of stuff I probably should not. so for useful things, perhaps.

I am sure you all realize I have many opinions on the most recent efforts to control women and their bodies. Yes, even as an adopted person I fully endorse abortion because babies who aren’t wanted are hard enough to raise feeling like anything, to actually establish that as a rule is a bit much.