I think–well I started writing this before I was drunk, say 1 pm.

This past year has been harder than anything–the drowning we have done I am over, and this year I want new habits to make new habits, if you don’t get it.

Every day I want to write here, and now I work VERY early so such things should still be possible. 6-2:45 pm daily and there is room in that schedule to do more than I do currently, but I will admit sleeping until 8 something has been a blessing I won’t be able to forget, even though I rarely did sleep until then. 4 am was a more solid thing and now it will be with some level of distortion, unhappiness, etc.

I have to figure out some better ways to be, some better ways to BE than the way things are, and that is my focus this year.

More writing.
More reading.
A marriage within the next few weeks to solve some issues.
A new puppy (Duke needs a friend!).
A new apartment (next door but still imperative).
With the new apartment a new way to pay my student loans so that if the unthinkable happens I am not dead by 50, I certainly don’t want to be wage garnished to fucking dog food.
Two new passports and a trip to Europe for us both (honeymoon will be cheaper than a service after all).

Some hope. I have had some dates in my head since 2009—April of 2017 is going to be VERY unique to us all…I don’t want to say much on that, but let’s watch it pass. I have had a weird thing with dates in April for years and given it is now THE year I don’t feel much better.

Lots of wine in me right now, but Happy Happy to you all. Let’s hope something sensible happens this year…

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