And oh, what have we done?
I am finding it hard to be inspired being so bed-ridden…I am bedridden more to boredom than being unable to physically move.
I was teary-eyed when Babs left this morning. I felt like I was taken care of unconditionally: wholly and completely with no exchange needed.
I need visitors, please! E’s business trip will likely keep him through to Sunday which is pretty depressing considering there isn’t much to get excited about until then.
Good thing my mom got me stuff to keep me through to this weekend while she was here.
Life is a slow moving thing when you don’t live or get out too much. My left vocal chord is fluttering a bit and the surgeon promised it would definitely come back. He makes good on all of his promises so I have no choice but to believe him. It causes annoying coughs and really faint whispery voice calls. If I had to scream I would be in trouble, but inside it’s unlikely.
March 22, 2006 at 4:57 am
glad to hear the voicw is getting better. you should try to take some little local excursions.
March 22, 2006 at 7:01 pm
ha!
everyone keeps telling me my voice is getting better but the new people who hear it are like “what happened to your voice, girl?”.
to me it sounds pretty much the same, though i’d have to assume all of this coughing is because the little chord is trying really hard to be active again…it’s such a dry annoying cough i hate it.
and as i talk more, it doesn’t actually get stronger. my voice teacher had no really good suggestions so i might have to go back to the throat professor.
today’s excursion was the hospital: in car, so it doesn’t count as much though i did sit up the entire time.
thank you kristen for all of your help!
March 22, 2006 at 8:44 pm
Hey hey Deanna. Whoaa-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-Deanna!!!!!!!
Hi D, Ms Shattered Ambivilence, Star-of-the-blog-world,
i hope you’re eating all the pudding and drinking all the bubble-less ginger ale. i wish i could be in the hospital. no really. it seems to me that you may not be a big pudding eater, and i could totally help. oh, yeah, i could say hi and keep you company too. that would be sweet.
so i’ve been checking in with you the only way that i can, by COMPUTER. Neck incisions, sheered vessels, this is compelling stuff, I think about you a lot these past weeks and I hope your pain is lessening. And more than that, I hope all this comes to be finished someday. It’s impressive that you’ve kept such a healthy perspective throughout this. kudos. I know that I would be a cryin’ for my mama bitch if how I deal with a head cold is any indication.
Listen, your blog doesn’t mention how long you’re going to be bed bound, but if it’s much longer, send me your address and a list of any books you’re interested in, I will fulfill that list the best I can at my store, and overnight that shit. damn yeah.
James Baldwin once said: “You think your pain and suffering is unique in the world, and then you read.” Of course that old queer wasn’t talking surgery, but maybe I can help you pass the time, make some sort of contribution.
wishin you well,
Jeff
March 23, 2006 at 12:48 am
Re: Hey hey Deanna. Whoaa-o-o-o-o-o-o-o-Deanna!!!!!!!
Jeff!
Yes I will check my list of wanted books…though you might have some to reccommend I do not know. Some authors even? I am pretty partial to memoirs lately…though I’ve read most of the ones I’ve found probably. Or fiction, stuff that doesn’t require much in terms of digestion. My brain is pretty tired from thinking too much, see.
As it stands now the next surgery should be sometime within the next 3 to 4 weeks, the open heart. But, as my surgeon has not broken any promises yet, it should leave me home free from these for 10 to 20 [and only because the st. jude’s (metal aortic) valves aren’t permanent].
Thanks for the good thoughts 😉
March 22, 2006 at 8:46 pm
PS
Oh, fucking weird live journal stuff.
Jeff Norquist
http://www.myspace.com/565622
jf_kist@hotmail.com
March 23, 2006 at 12:49 am
Re: PS
it’s a good thing you did that. I started to wonder who…
ha ha.