so today I had a good realization

about people, things situations in my life

and I am learning things about myself,
and even though some of them burn and cauterize and pick
to the bone, they are the good things to realize about oneself

but this continued honesty…like a whirlwind rainstorm
has nice rainbows at the end
I feel it.

and I am actually feeling something despite anger resentment
and disbelief

this kind of disbelief is just at my own ignorance, played upon
for far too long

the funny thing is, I said to someone today:

brainhuwts: you have to break before you fix yourself

brainhuwts: remember

brainhuwts: otherwise what’s the point of fixing
perfection

but it’s also that new kind of chrysalistic metamorphisis
beating down and winding in, tight circles traced on finger tips

awash, stripped and glowing

I remember the taste your lips
leave on mine
only a few hours later

awash, strippped and glowing
I remember the twist of your kiss

the way your face bends in to mine
but it’s also that new kind of chrysalistic metamorphisis
beating down and winding in, this one I’m not going to miss

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So that’s one of my songs

lately they have been barelling in

so much that things are going to be.